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wow. its been more than a year since i have written in this thing. and its kinda like a breath of fresh air typing on my xanga. i really do like these blog things, i just havent had time to update and whatnot. you know with the whole facebook and myspace craze. btw. myspace->www.myspace.com/edencavina and facebook, i guess just search me under Eden Lee or go to my AIM profile and click the link. im too lazy to actually go grab the hyperlink and stuff. hmm lets see what had been going on in Eden-land. hmm, well nothing really. quit cheerleading cuz im too good for those people. sike haha. but i really did quit and i do know im good. call me cocky or whatever, but you cant go through life denying your strengths. they make you who you are so why hide them? anyways..at school..uhh theres theatre and chorale and orchestra. pretty much the only cool classes of the day. oh wait! english with ms miller too! how could i almost forget that class?! she is a beast and my class is tight. OHH SNAPP, our hottie sub teacher Mr. Muchmore..how could i forget? yeah, i actually dont know what to say other than the fact that he's a hottie. and most girls i know wanna do him. haha. ah well, yeah enough about that, im not a stalker or anything.

i dont really know who im hanging out with these days. that just depends on my mood since people are so shady. you really cant be positive about anybody but yourself, and even then your mind goes crazy sometimes. i look back on previous entries and im like wow, ilovemyself. is that a bad thing? no i dont think so. i just think im an awesome person..pretty much the most awesome person you'lll ever meet. umm..im all over the place right now, but whatever, you'll just have to forgive m. its been awhile you know?

here it is almost the nearing the end of 4th quarter and let me tell you..the number of new dips ive had this year is astounding! i mean i dont think its ever been this packed before. i mean everyone from '07 to '04. from stuff that happened of school trips,(williamsburg!), to just people in my classes. haha. im a beast. but really, its has been an interesting year. lets count. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6,...hmm lets just stop im making my head hurt. im just crazy this year i guess.  hehe.

but yeah, i need to go put some clothes in the dryer so that i dont have to go out naked tonight. no matter how tempting that may be. hehe. its party time! p-a-r-t-why? because i gotta. ohh yeahh! and my birthday is coming up soon. yayy! sweeet sixteen. im hyped. lets see who's gonna remember this year. people seem to have a habit of forgetting it. grrr. though i will make sure i make my friends signs for their fucking lockers! wow, this has been fun, but i must go.

later days. lots of love.

alrighty...i've been having some troubles updating this thing so i would suggest you go to my livejournal account to check things out if there's nothing here.. www.livejournal.com/~wicked_cool08 . yeah just click that and youre in for yet another place to know about me..haha you know you wanna click it. and by the way, i dont feel like writing everything twice so you might be better off just going to that. there's a survey on there at the moment, so if you hae time, take that sucker. it would make me ever so happy!

spring break is soo boring so far,  i guess i shouldnt complain cuz im not in school. but the bad thing about no being in school is that i dont get to see folks that i only see in school((a hem)) yeah. so that sucks. ubt oh well i think i'll get over it. and you know what else, well i dont know actually. but theres a xenos concert coming up and i think im going. thought im bummed cuz MB isnt playing..BOO. oh well. umm nothing else o say at the moment so like i said before click the link, and check whats going on there....

love you. love me.

okayy..i dont really have anything cool to say..i made chorale which is pretty sweet. im really looking forward to that one. umm i also made jazz choir which is also sweet. that should be fun. umm rehearsals for Cinderella have been..well..yeah. if you know me well enough you know my feelings about that.. but thats a small portion of the folks reading this so..nvm. track started up, like for real now. so im less than enthusiastic about that. just because i have so much stuff to do and that just adds on. i have two tests tomorrow. one is in freaking math. I HATE THAT CLASS WITH A PASSION!! ugh. and i think im going to fail it anyway. so i will attempt to study but i doubt that will do any help. the other one is spanish which im good at so it shouldnt be that bad. theres a chorus concert on thursday, i have a duet on that one, so that should be interesting. im soo exhausted though. i dont even think you could imagine. mayeb those of you with more creative imaginations could but the majority probably not. my mom has gone wacko these past few days. it like everything i do is the wrong way. and thats pretty typical but like its been overboard. like i cant even talk to her for like more than 10 minutes without me getting yelled at. thats a boo. so my day tomorrow should be..NOT a good one.  im not looking forward to it at all. i find myself having to tell myself to get up when im just laying bed and im like i definately dont want to go to school. i just cant. but then im like okay i dont have an excusable reason so i get up. alot of things are just so crazy right now. i mean between friends and school, and all that stuff. speaking of friends. i dont really have a like "circle" of friends. you know like a particualr group. i mean i know its cool to be friends with everybody but, when you dont have that like security group, you get left out alot. it sucks. you just wish you had that sometimes. but then you kind of get in, and then it seems like youre unwelcome, yadda yadda yadda, then even when you think youre starting to really hang with these people, they make plans and dont invite you and you hear them talking about it to eachother, and you dont say anything cuz you dont wanna be the tag-along, so then youre once againb in the situation you were in before. and you know what. it seems like i'll like become friends with people that people around you dont usually hang out wiht. and then all of a sudden, all these other people are liek best friends with them and then youre out of the picture. yeah that sucks. alot. and you know what that happens to me alot too. and im tired of people trying to change me. or like when people tell me something that they think i shouldnt do. that pisses me off. i mean like im going to be who i wanna be and you dont have any right to try to change that. or even question what i do. just leave me alone when it comes to that. cuz i could care less if you dont like it. okay done ranting. im going to get something to eat and then im studying til i...well i was trying to think of something funny but it didnt happen. haha. so i guess i'll study til i get distracted. but i'll try hard not to.

<[(EdeN)]>

Currently Playing Absolution By Muse Hysteria, but everything else too! see related

alrighty. so orchestra went to contest yesterday and we got a flipping 1!! can you believe that, i mean that was so like a movie cuz everyone was talking about us like "man orchestra sucks" and stuff like that. so what now bitches?!?! hahaha jk, but really what now? it was a pretty fun time and i must say the award goes to laura for getting shot down by the sightreading judge. haha. that was one of the highlights of my night. but lets back track a little bit. so we're on the bus and somehow stuff came up and it was like share time for a few seats, that was eventful. and i got to really talk to amanda and evie which i havent done in awhile. good times. so then we stop for dinner and me and liz decide to go to mcdonalds. there was hradly anyone from orchestra there. it was umm me, liz, shalena, taylor, erik, spencer, b.j, and whoever was sitting with him. so then we ate and left much fun. but i decided since i didnt eat all of it i was going to put the chicken nuggets and fries in a giant pocket that resides in my coat. i also came to the conclusion that since the ketchup would be hard to use on the bus, i was going to use bbq sauce. so we're the first ones on the bus and we started messing around and then PSHLA, the sauce opens/spills in my pocket!! what? man i was mad, so i got off the bus and wiped everything off.

so we got to the school and it was GINORMOUS!, no kidding. like they had a lion in a glass case. i mean it was a dead lion but a lion none the less. so we got changed and played, (got a freaking 1!) and then we went back to the room. so like mass people didnt feel like changing so they just changed right there in the room. hmm that was interesting. ms johnson was in there too for while i think. i think it was liz that said something to to effect of, "that was a michael jackson moment". that was pretty funny. so then we went in the bus and went home. some funny things happened on the way home but i dont feel like stating them at the moment. my hands are lazy..soo im to do something with torie today but im not sure what yet. i guess i should get on that..

and did i mention that we got a FREAKING 1!!!!! maybe i did..so what? yeah umm i guess i'll be back later..

Currently Playing Sex & Candy By Marcy Playground Sex and Candy..duh! see related

okay sorry about yesterday, but i was thoroughly pissed. but um nothing happened today so i have nothing really so say..oh wait, we went to P & T's to see torie(we being meg and i), and much to our surprise, scott((skot?) i dont know how he spells his name nowadays)), aaron, and kevin were up there was well. we had fun, annoyed the heck out of torie, and then walked to megs. then i went to musical rehearsal..which was great. then i went home. so then i got on the computer and now here we are. sooo thats about it.

sorry about the boringness of this post

<[(EdeN)]>

btw, this song is beastly!! i loove it!! i mean i dont know exactly what sex smells like((uh yeah..prolly dont want to)) but i like the song anyways. good times!!